Today was a rough day. But it could have been more difficult. Sometimes it feels like life has really restricting opportunities. And other days it feels like life is full of such freedom and promise. Turns out both are true.
God really showed up for me today. Obviously he is always there but he was really tangible today. And it doesn't always feel like that's the case.
Lately my bestfriend (from Lethbridge) Ryan has been down. Which in turn can make me down. But here's the thing;our friendship - any friendship- is a relationship. And that means you have to work through difficulties in life together. So I think I'll work on that a bit more.
Did I mention that Taylor Swift if my favorite thing right now? Because she really is. Adelle will always be my foundation but Taylor is like the sparkle on the beautiful base coat... you know?! That's how I feel anyways.
I talked to my grandmother today and it was wonderful. I love this woman. She said some of the best things to me. Like "Always pay yourself first! Even if it's only $5, every time you get payed." I think that's an interesting and admirable guideline to have see you through life. I love her so much. When she was talking to me today I just started to jot down all the quarky, witty, and wise things she was telling me. It was delightful.
One of my roommates said she was going to move out. Thankfully Ryan and I found someone to take her room ASAP. Josh our good friend. I hope he does end up taking it. He is fun and wonderful. And I trust him not to kill me in my sleep. He just needs to make sure he can afford it.
The Love List goes up in a couple weeks. I'm very excited to get the walls and door and floor down for the show! Set/props designing is pretty sweet. I do enjoy it a lot.
Well I'm going to take a Gravol so that I can fall asleep. This medication for my Pneumonia keeps me away for way to long, it is time to take action.
Thank God for the people and perspective in my life.
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Friday, January 11, 2013
And So Here I Am Now
There is this thing called 'being changed' that I had always searched for... It turns out that as soon as I decided to stop trying to change, and learn to love who I am, that's when I changed. I'm glad I changed when I did for the old me brought me to this wonderful place in my life. This place where tragedy can hit my world like a tidal wave and leave me standing almost as strong as I was watching it come for me. I'm pleased to say that has a lot to do with becoming a Christian or finding my faith, at least finding myself. I found some unison between my head and my heart for the first time.
I am currently listening to my new favorite artist Taylor Swift, who would have thought!? Haha. She's really working for me right now.
I was in the Hospital yesterday and found out I have Pneumonia. I went in the second day I was sick so we caught it in time to stop it from getting too bad, hopefully. I was at the Hospital for 6-ish hours by myself. What I'm getting at with that is that I wanted to be alone. And not in a sad way. I wasn't sad. It was OK, nice even.
Right now even though it might not be good for my health, I am on the Greyhound to Edmonton. My Great Aunt Vera passed away and her service is tomorrow at 2pm. She had Pneumonia ironically enough. I knew her. But I could have known her better. Still I promised myself I while ago that I would do everything in my power not to miss anymore funerals. I say anymore because I missed my favorite person in the worlds' funeral. And it may be one of the only things I regret. So yes this trip may not speed up my physical health, but it's good for my mental health.
I've found this magical thing called forgiveness. It is hand in hand with Grace. And they have changed my life for the better. And with every time I show Grace and Forgive (myself or anyone else) I become so much stronger. I actually feel emotional strength. And it has got to be one of the best feelings. But it was not easy to get here I promise you that. And it's not hard to stray. The point is not, to not stray, but to always find your way back. And I am always finding it.
I am currently listening to my new favorite artist Taylor Swift, who would have thought!? Haha. She's really working for me right now.
I was in the Hospital yesterday and found out I have Pneumonia. I went in the second day I was sick so we caught it in time to stop it from getting too bad, hopefully. I was at the Hospital for 6-ish hours by myself. What I'm getting at with that is that I wanted to be alone. And not in a sad way. I wasn't sad. It was OK, nice even.
Right now even though it might not be good for my health, I am on the Greyhound to Edmonton. My Great Aunt Vera passed away and her service is tomorrow at 2pm. She had Pneumonia ironically enough. I knew her. But I could have known her better. Still I promised myself I while ago that I would do everything in my power not to miss anymore funerals. I say anymore because I missed my favorite person in the worlds' funeral. And it may be one of the only things I regret. So yes this trip may not speed up my physical health, but it's good for my mental health.
I've found this magical thing called forgiveness. It is hand in hand with Grace. And they have changed my life for the better. And with every time I show Grace and Forgive (myself or anyone else) I become so much stronger. I actually feel emotional strength. And it has got to be one of the best feelings. But it was not easy to get here I promise you that. And it's not hard to stray. The point is not, to not stray, but to always find your way back. And I am always finding it.
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