Seasons like Emotions

Lethbridge is still pretty hot. 26-32 degrees Celsius. It is suppose to start raining here in a few days. That will be nice. It's actually been a while since I've been in a nice rain storm.
Rehearsals for Moveable Feast and shifts at Petland are starting to become more constant and reliable. Which is very nice!
Living in this City is starting to drive me crazy. There are elements of the big City that I miss. Like things being open past 9pm on any given night. And not just bars.
There is so much in life that I want. Like friends, close friends. The friends that I can do boring things with and have a good time. That I can vent to without bothering them. That I can always count on texting me back, picking up the phone, or meeting me somewhere. The security in knowing someone loves me. I guess after a year and a few months I still have not developed one of those friends. It's frustrating.
I didn't move here with an arrogant presence that I am amazing. But I did move here in faith and hope that I would feel amazing. So far goal not met. Some days I'm glad I moved here, others I just wish I was in the arms or within arms reach of someone who knows me.
Can someone tell me why I moved away? And why I refuse to believe or let my self ever move back? Because I don't remember,
It's been 13 months since I moved away from friends and family that love me more then some people are ever loved and I still cry at night on a regular bases. But will going back help? I don't think so. But perhaps a trial run will help my piece of mind? But I just got a job at Petland! Maybe for just a summer session of school in Edmonton next summer... We will see.

Thanks Giving

I miss home. And I'm going home next weekend for Thanks Giving!And on the Saturday night I am having a party! I want to see my friends!!!
I did get into that show! And I had my first shift of work last night and I LOVE it!
Today I think will be a Homework rest and relax day. But tonight I am going to a cast party for R&J a theatre Extra production put on at the U of L. I still don't drink though. And I'm liking it! It's been 3 months. Haha I'm talking like I'm an alcoholic! Which I'm not! :)
I like that I'm building a network of friends out here. I feel more safe/comfortable. It's just easier to live when you feel that way.
I'm also Volunteering at a seniors lodge doing scrap booking once a month. It will so great!!!

Almost...

My little sister just left. She spent the weekend here in Lethbridge with me. I took her to my callbacks, then to a costume birthday party on Friday. Saturday my boyfriend and I took her to brunch at The Cheese Cake Cafe. Then just her and I went shopping, watched The Emperors New Groove, and proceeded to go see Cowboy: A Cowboy Story where we saw lots of people she met at the party and callbacks. Today we went for a picnic and when we cabbed about her mom was already here ready to take her back home. Ha ha. It was good timing.

I've got training at Petland Mon, Tues, Thurs, and Friday. I find out on Mon, or Tues whether I got into the Movable Feast or not. I feel like I did but we will see. My life will be crazy if I did. Working, and rehearsal, school, and homework! But it will/would be worth it. I hope everything works out with my schedule. I haven't verbally talked to my boss yet about the show. Only e-mails. But tomorrow during training I will talk to her and give her a hard copy of my life.

On the boyfriend front there is lots of love. I wasn't sure if we were drifting or not but we seem ok. Being away from each other so often feels like is good for us. As long as both of us are busy. It makes seeing each other more special.

I have homework to organize so I am going to figure that out.

Bye for now!  

GOT A JOB

I got the job at Petland. And I'm super excited to start. I hope I only work 20-25 hours a week. But we will get into that when training starts. But I also want to audition for the main-stage at school. AH. I'm excited about life more now. I need to figure out the bus rout to work.
I'm off to a friend of mines party! First party of the school year. Oh and I went rafting down the old man river today with my boyfriend and a couple we are friends with. It was SUCH a good day. And there is
still more to go.
Buy now.  

Veggie Straws

So I couldn't think of a good title for this so the default was what I am eating. They are from Wal-Mart Super Center and very healthy not to mention tasty.
Today is Friday also the start of the first weekend since school started. I've got a fair amount of homework due mon, tues, weds next week. But its not all bad. This year started off way better then the last! Probably having something to do with actually knowing people. It is nice to have friends. :)
I bought a giant erasable by monthly calender to tack to my wall so I would not forget things. I just put it up and it is already working.
I'm sitting here on my couch watching my puppy chew on her rope thinking about how much I hope I get that job at Petland. As much as I want to be able to audition for things and not worry about scheduling... I do really need a job. And I would LOVE working in a pet store.
On Tuesday I'm auditioning for a show called the Movable Feast... Its about dancing fruit as far as I know. But its a main stage show and I'm gonna need one of those to graduate seeing as I'm changing from a Music to a Drama Major. I figure I have a decent chance at getting into this show.

Buy for now!

WHAT?!...what.?

I cleaned my house all day! And I must say it looks pretty nice. My bedroom and kitchen are what need the last touches. Which will take place tomorrow. I told the boyfriend I would make him dinner tomorrow night or evening rather. I think I'll make cor on the cob, veggies, potatoes, and... what ever meat he brings me to cook him. Seeing as I do not consume things that were once oxygen breathing, living, feeling things. But I have nothing against those who do.
My bestfriend(continue to Spontaneously Me to read my reason on why best-friend should be one word)  and her other bestfriend/lover/V-card taker/man-thing are having an interesting time in their lives. Its nice. I bet and hope they just get together and see what happens. This prolonged en-concluded conclusion is driving me nuts. Just get it over with you crazy people <3 ;)

Also I miss my man bestfriend!!!!!!!! So badly I could hurt innocent baby things. I miss him so stupidly much! Hopefully he is coming down for the Halloween weekend which is in 2 months but hey there is not much I can do from here.

Bye now

Life right now

School starts Wednesday and I don't know if I should change my major to Drama. I'm waiting for a taxi to take me to wal-mart while sitting in the Lethbridge hot sun. But I like the heat. I'm going to buy an automatic cleaning kittylitter box and food! My apartment is still a disaster zone. School starts in 3 days. I plan to be cleaned up and cleaned out by then! Wish me luck in figuring everything out.