Remember

Your in my dreams and I wake up to find you gone. Leaving alone is what makes it so impossible to return. Effort could have saved us. But fear lost everything. We took the happiness for granted and now there is excruciating emptiness where the happiness went unnoticed. I hope I never again feel the way I did when we ended our life together. But I do believe that the pain was worth pure love I gave that I may never give so strongly again. Because it felt so good.

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I haven't written much in here lately. Im on a medication that makes my anxiety, depression, and OCD. I am happier now.
I am ASMing a theatre extra show. Greg is the lead in it too.
Also I love my job! I hope to be getting a bird! A cockatiel! Marcutio is His name <3
And even though Greg will be leaving Lethbridge after the first summer session, I'm going to stay in Lethbridge. Not 100% sure but that is my mind frame now.

New Years Eve (will I feel different tomorrow?)

Christmas is over. 2012 is in 7 hours. I've messed up a few times this year. But what's weird is that I feel more like my self when I do.
No one is who you think they are.

Smiles and Miles

My parents just left Lethbridge this morning. They were here to see Moveable Feast which is now over. They re-arranged my appointment and now it actually looks nice!
Yesterday there was also I huge fire around the west side as well as 144km/hr winds. My building was on emergency evacuation standby.
My boyfriend and I had a wonderful day together and watched Apocalypse Now. He wants to move to Calgary once he graduates. He graduates this summer. And I really do not want to move to Calgary. He is not %100 sure yet so its hard to talk about it. I don't do long distance.

I wish you luck on life and I hope you wish me the same! <3

Snow<3

I cleaned/rearranged my apartment! I still need to make my bed room livable, and organize my bathroom. And then I'll be good! Maybe my mom and dad will make my place more maintainable when they are here visiting. Oh I have to do dishes too!
It snowed today! It's exciting. I can't wait until the show I'm in is over and I can pay for my schooling or rent. Because I'll be able to work more hours.
I hope I do good this semester. And I hope Christmas will be a good break!

Almost over

I cast my Directing scene for class and now I need to figure out how to schedule my life with 3 different rehearsals, work, school, and homework. Meh so far not too fun.

Piano

Today I wanted to kill things during rehearsal. But after rehearsal our director gave my friend and I a ride home. She's a sweet person but a frustrating director.
Last night I stayed at the school after rehearsal for a while and played piano.
I also got 4 beta fish at the end of last week! They are lovely.