Seasons like Emotions

Lethbridge is still pretty hot. 26-32 degrees Celsius. It is suppose to start raining here in a few days. That will be nice. It's actually been a while since I've been in a nice rain storm.
Rehearsals for Moveable Feast and shifts at Petland are starting to become more constant and reliable. Which is very nice!
Living in this City is starting to drive me crazy. There are elements of the big City that I miss. Like things being open past 9pm on any given night. And not just bars.
There is so much in life that I want. Like friends, close friends. The friends that I can do boring things with and have a good time. That I can vent to without bothering them. That I can always count on texting me back, picking up the phone, or meeting me somewhere. The security in knowing someone loves me. I guess after a year and a few months I still have not developed one of those friends. It's frustrating.
I didn't move here with an arrogant presence that I am amazing. But I did move here in faith and hope that I would feel amazing. So far goal not met. Some days I'm glad I moved here, others I just wish I was in the arms or within arms reach of someone who knows me.
Can someone tell me why I moved away? And why I refuse to believe or let my self ever move back? Because I don't remember,
It's been 13 months since I moved away from friends and family that love me more then some people are ever loved and I still cry at night on a regular bases. But will going back help? I don't think so. But perhaps a trial run will help my piece of mind? But I just got a job at Petland! Maybe for just a summer session of school in Edmonton next summer... We will see.