105 street

You find yourself. You find yourself sitting in a Chapters reading a book that costs $9 and some odd charge over the balance in your bank account. Listening to a woman constructively analyze a pyramid of books on a display table below the balcony your sitting at.
Your boss texts you back letting you know that it's ok you haven't checked your email in a few days... Well this is the fourth funeral you've been out of town for in 4 months. All your family. Your bosses brother texts you asking how you are (he wants to hang out, he lives where you're visiting).
How are you? - Just reading a book that is so far very sad. Looking at a LUSH bag with face-mask cream in it. (You shouldn't have bought that-You're so broke).
Plans to take a free kickboxing class at 6... It's 4:45. The people you're staying with aren't home until 5:30. You'll have enough time to run over change into workout clothes before getting picked up. Until then you... What?
Tomorrow morning your grandfather will pick you up from your friends place (you stay in his room, you like this boy) and you go to Timmies before the funeral. Pick up your dog from your mom's house (you are not on good terms with your mom right now). Then you travel 7 hours to home in a truck with your dog and grandfather and a week of memories (you will like that). Next time you come back will be better... You hope.

Cross Roads

I am attending a University that I thought I liked. I thought I'd get I wanted from it. I'm living in a town house I thought I'd like. I thought it would become home. I met a guy who I know I love. But with everything else not working out its hard to even think about moving way.
There are people here that I like, but there is a person who makes me die inside every single time I see them, without fail. And as much as I talk about it, realize its stupid, and have people give me really good reasons why I shouldn't be so upset, I still am.
I don't want it to ruin my life. But I have no idea what to do. I have no idea where to go. I'm stuck in an emotional tornado of fear and hesitation.